hey ppl.... since long i updated and decided to update again since i have a few ramblings...
My life have been bad thus far since i blog and ever since then and there... i dont have the mood i dont have my soul and i dont even feel like smiling...
Its not that i dont see things from the good point and is not that i am not positive minded. But some how, i just cannot take it anymore and cannot go on. Things that show me that its not mine and i still continue banging on it telling it to open its door.. thats not me and thats not it. I cant take it anymore and i am not continuing. After long long time. i finally decided to try and slowly give it up. Hope that i will start again and will not be cursed by it. By then, i hope i am alright and by then i hope that all's well for all. Thats what i am hoping for now.
I am tired...
My soul is tired...
Everything i hoped for once has failed and it shall be the past unless a miracle happen which i BELIEVED that it happens but it didnt...
Maybe, thats my retribution.
Maybe, thats what i deserve.
Maybe, its all predicted
& maybe, its suppose to be this way.
not only has that thing happened, ANOTHER freaking irritating thing happened.
U just dont have ur own style and u dont know urself.
All u do is to copy copy and copy. thats all u are best at. since the very beginning u have been this way and i have to say this.
CAN U EVEN STOP IT!
it is freaking irritating and freaking making me hate u for all the reason that u copy copy and copy people's style and personality. Thats freaking not ORIGINAL which makes u a freaking copycat and u are not original. What is even ur freaking problem that u have to copy. find things to do and find ur own words, style and even laughter and actions. CAN OR NOT U THIS FREAKING NO STYLER!
Its really irritating and boiles my blood that u just copy and say.. seee.. nice right!!!! MINE LEH!!!.. what the hacks is ur problem!. GET OFF MY BACK!
I wanted to see u as a different view but no... u made urself a name. copycat-er!
U make me pissed off and just that i am wordless abt u.
All those good positive points i thought that i might help u to say is all vanished in the SPLIT SECOND that i saw it.
I am speechless to ur stupid actions and mind.
If u think its u, u are just guilt conscience. Too bad. Only my besties and family will know the person. and they will not tell.
The world i live in is becoming no meaning and no life. just hope everything has a change and a miracle will somehow appear on me just a tiny little bit. For some reasons, i am tired, i am lifeless and.... i dont know who i even am......
But still my life are happy and interesting because i have my family consisting of great
parents that i can never ever have again and i will never trade them, three great
sisters that are fun and full of laughter which brightens up my day. I have bestfriends aka girlfriends
Silver,
Priya and
Geraldine darlings for being there for me when i need them and staying with me through my hard times even when i am sometimes crazy and god knows what i am talking... hahas!xD My senior
Edna.. for talking crap crap and more rubbish saying i am a retarded(thanks so much). My
cousins and
relatives where they create fun and help me to forget my troubles.
THANKS A BILLION FOR EVERYTHING GUYS. especially my family and girlfriends. i dont know how to thank u if i have to count. cause what u guys did is countless.
My mum when to wrote in to the MOE and tell them that my sisters and i accidentally threw away the Edusave Bursary form cause that time my household income was like over the limit and now thats its less then we cannot apply!xDD hahas! MOE send us the form and allow us to get the money!(: hahas!xDD THANKS MUMMY!! and my dad is just smiling so hard!xDD hahahas! *BIG HUGS!*
Today and yesterday went out with Silver darling and Priya dear!xDD hahas!xDD i tell u.. out mouths are always full of rubbish and actions!xDD ahahhahas!xDDD we bought the same pants and wanted to buy for geraldine sweethearts but we dont know her waist size so.. sry girl!!!!! but but ! we did not forget u ya know right!!xDD hahas!xDD when to Ngee Ann city and THERE SHE IS!.. hahahas!xDD she have sharp eyes man!.... so far away can see us!xDD hahas!
ANDAND!.. priya almost got my hips crashed in the mrt gate!.. lol! i was happily going through the gate and tapping my card away when she goes HUIWENNNNNNNNN!!!.. i thought something happened to her and turn.. then i go. what what!.. then she just said something which i can hear. then i just stand in the middle of the gate!!! OMG!.. i quickly jumped in. then she and silver came in then i realised that she saw yanghan.. lol! she never even call him and expect me to see where is he and confirm. lol!xDD hahahas!xDD but she definately did not see the wrong person though.xDD hahas!
Priya Priya.. u are hilarious to the max man!... i almost get my hips crashed and u just stared at the position with my panicking whether to get in or out with the gate! hahas!xDDD Silver was as fast as ever going what what and run beside her to see.. hahas!xDD too bad i am TOO FAST in tapping the card.. if not we will run and surprise yanghan and shout at his face. lol!. PRIYA! thanks for shouting and getting me life almost endangered anyway!xDD hahahhaas!!! LOVE U TO THE MAX!(: hahahas!xDD
Went to school and see how was drama.. not bad... for speech day. did not even get to see how was SYF...=((( but saw a few talented and able to groomed sec 1s... two kid who acted as sneezy in snow white and the seven dwarfs super cute and adorable man!. hahas!xDD my juniors are just so cute! LOL!!! feeling pinching their cheeks man!xDD LOL!
BTW! Priya loves to sit on MRT floor.. hahas!xDD and i love taking photos of her on the MRT floor!xDD hahahas!xDD always without fail!xDD LOL! i can predict my tag will be with her tags man!XDD LOL!
ANYWAY, i shall end here and thanks to besties(ALL ok geraldine!!!) for the wonderful and memorable hip crashing day! LOVE U GUYS TO BITS!<3
